Gotta love science. This is....is just amazing for genetics. "[F]or women to father children and men to make eggs would be as significant a breakthrough as the birth of the first test tube baby 30 years ago - and one whose implications would be just as profound."
"It raises the possibility of lesbian couples one day having children who share both their genes as sperm created from the bone marrow of one woman could be used to fertilise an egg from her partner."
PS. They're filming something on the block next to my apartment and I tried as best as I could to figure out who was filming. No luck. Stupid trailers and film crews :(
"It raises the possibility of lesbian couples one day having children who share both their genes as sperm created from the bone marrow of one woman could be used to fertilise an egg from her partner."
PS. They're filming something on the block next to my apartment and I tried as best as I could to figure out who was filming. No luck. Stupid trailers and film crews :(
- Mood:
hopeful
So many people are disheartened after the oral arguments - newspapers, blogs, etc. Because I wasn't quite sure what to think (even though I have a pretty good understanding - for a non-law person - of legal jargon and legal reasoning) I braved my ex's "we can't talk right now" stance and asked her what she thought. The reason I went to her - she's in her 3rd year of law school and her entire family is in the legal profession so it's in her blood. And, hmm, she's super intelligent and that's why I fell for her in the first place! So in case you were wondering what to think, here are her thoughts:
--Oral arguments can be a tough indicator of how a court is going to vote because the judges have often already made up their minds beforehand. Long before arguments are heard, they've already read all of the briefs for both sides, done independent research, had their clerks write memos and opinions, and discussed it with their clerks and (possibly) each other. On the other hand, oral arguments can serve a useful purpose when there is a particular point a judge wants to get clarified or a judge wants to exploit a weakness in an argument to show the other judges. Also, b/c the California judges need to think about getting re-elected, oral arguments could give them a chance to go on the record as opposing the philosophy/idea behind Prop 8 even if they are going to uphold it as valid. That said, it seemed to me like Chief Justice George and (especially) Justice Kennard, who were both in the 4-justice majority in last May's prop 22 decision, were pretty skeptical of the argument that Prop 8 was a revision requiring prior legislative approval. I thought one of the strongest arguments in favor of upholding Prop 8 was a prior voter-approved amendment that reinstituted the death penalty in California. and was later upheld in court. On this point Kennard said, “It would appear to me that life is, at least in my view, a fundamental right. The court said that particular initiative restoring the death penalty in California was not a revision.” Of course, it is possible they were playing devil’s advocate but if we lose those two votes, then Prop 8 will almost certainly be upheld.
--Starr (the pro-Prop 8 attorney) was really good. The one thing he (eventually) conceded was that there was no retroactivity inherent in the Amendment, which would mean the marriages up to November 7 are valid. Conceding this, however, didn't damage his main argument at all, which was that Prop 8 "does not erode any of the bundle of rights that this state has [already] very generously provided" to same-sex couples via domestic partnership but merely "restores the traditional definition of marriage." As you noticed, it seemed like most of the justices agreed with this point. The problem with this is that it just side steps thinking about the discrimination inherent in calling "the bundle of rights" different things depending on who is involved.
--Something to think about: In principle, whether there is a right to same-sex marriage and whether Prop 8 is an amendment or a revision are two, independent questions. For example, a judge could believe there’s a fundamental right to same-sex marriage but that the state constitution liberally allows amendments by simple majority votes. On the other hand, a judge could believe there’s no fundamental right to same-sex marriage, but think that once the right is recognized, eliminating that fundamental right can only be done through revision. This argument could go as follows: the elimination of a fundamental right for a suspect class is such a monumental act that permitting its elimination through a simple majority vote could set a dangerous precedent for the erosion of other fundamental rights.
--The fact that California's constitution is so retarded (it's over 100 pages long and contains some of the stupidest amendments in the world-- like a prohibition against certain fishing nets b/c they trap dolphins) and that the justices are elected officials does not bode well for the anti-Prop 8 side. Although the Court did not seem inclined to agree with the "philosophy" behind Amendment 8 (obviously, because they already ruled against this philosophy in Prop 22), the technical language contained within it is a different matter. That is why so much of the arguments centered on "amendment" vs. "revision". To put it another way, the question was whether this decision should be made by the California legislature or the people (aka the electorate). The Court seemed to be favoring the electorate, but I think that makes some sense b/c they are all elected officials. That's shitty but that's my realist perspective.
--My prediction is that (1) the court will hold that Proposition 8 was a valid amendment, but (2) will also hold that the 18,000 same-sex marriages entered between June and November continue to be recognized and valid in California. The main hope for the anti-Prop 8 side lies in the recognition of several justices today, including Corrigan (who dissented last May), that Prop 8 is unprecedented and thus calls for a new articulation of what constitutes a revision. There's never been an amendment in California or elsewhere that (1) stripped a judicially declared "fundamental right" (a term of art that doesn't just mean things that are important to people) from (2) a judicially-protected suspect class (another term of art that doesn't just mean any political minority). If the California Supreme Court rules in favor of Prop 8, it seems to me it will need to do one of two things: (1) back off from one or more of its rationales from the marriage decision, or (2) candidly acknowledge that a bare majority of Californians can limit fundamental rights for anyone, including vulnerable minorities, under the state constitution. It's hard for me to see how either option would be attractive to the court, but I think they will choose the later because it will allow them to focus on the issue of "amendment" vs. "revision," thereby maintaining their philosophical opposition to Prop 8 while simultaneously pleasing the voters.
--Moving forward: The anti-Prop 8 people really don't want to challenge this in federal court b/c it will likely lose under the current make-up of the Supreme Court, especially as long as the Solomon Amendment and DADT are good law. This probably means that if Prop 8 is upheld, the next battle will be legislative-- i.e. getting ppl elected that will support gay marriage and lobbying the current adminstration. To me, this means at least another 10+ years of work. So our generation has finally found its defining cause.
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*Solomon Amendent - why this is important. See the Constitutional Challenge part of the entry.
*DADT = Don't Ask Don't Tell
--Oral arguments can be a tough indicator of how a court is going to vote because the judges have often already made up their minds beforehand. Long before arguments are heard, they've already read all of the briefs for both sides, done independent research, had their clerks write memos and opinions, and discussed it with their clerks and (possibly) each other. On the other hand, oral arguments can serve a useful purpose when there is a particular point a judge wants to get clarified or a judge wants to exploit a weakness in an argument to show the other judges. Also, b/c the California judges need to think about getting re-elected, oral arguments could give them a chance to go on the record as opposing the philosophy/idea behind Prop 8 even if they are going to uphold it as valid. That said, it seemed to me like Chief Justice George and (especially) Justice Kennard, who were both in the 4-justice majority in last May's prop 22 decision, were pretty skeptical of the argument that Prop 8 was a revision requiring prior legislative approval. I thought one of the strongest arguments in favor of upholding Prop 8 was a prior voter-approved amendment that reinstituted the death penalty in California. and was later upheld in court. On this point Kennard said, “It would appear to me that life is, at least in my view, a fundamental right. The court said that particular initiative restoring the death penalty in California was not a revision.” Of course, it is possible they were playing devil’s advocate but if we lose those two votes, then Prop 8 will almost certainly be upheld.
--Starr (the pro-Prop 8 attorney) was really good. The one thing he (eventually) conceded was that there was no retroactivity inherent in the Amendment, which would mean the marriages up to November 7 are valid. Conceding this, however, didn't damage his main argument at all, which was that Prop 8 "does not erode any of the bundle of rights that this state has [already] very generously provided" to same-sex couples via domestic partnership but merely "restores the traditional definition of marriage." As you noticed, it seemed like most of the justices agreed with this point. The problem with this is that it just side steps thinking about the discrimination inherent in calling "the bundle of rights" different things depending on who is involved.
--Something to think about: In principle, whether there is a right to same-sex marriage and whether Prop 8 is an amendment or a revision are two, independent questions. For example, a judge could believe there’s a fundamental right to same-sex marriage but that the state constitution liberally allows amendments by simple majority votes. On the other hand, a judge could believe there’s no fundamental right to same-sex marriage, but think that once the right is recognized, eliminating that fundamental right can only be done through revision. This argument could go as follows: the elimination of a fundamental right for a suspect class is such a monumental act that permitting its elimination through a simple majority vote could set a dangerous precedent for the erosion of other fundamental rights.
--The fact that California's constitution is so retarded (it's over 100 pages long and contains some of the stupidest amendments in the world-- like a prohibition against certain fishing nets b/c they trap dolphins) and that the justices are elected officials does not bode well for the anti-Prop 8 side. Although the Court did not seem inclined to agree with the "philosophy" behind Amendment 8 (obviously, because they already ruled against this philosophy in Prop 22), the technical language contained within it is a different matter. That is why so much of the arguments centered on "amendment" vs. "revision". To put it another way, the question was whether this decision should be made by the California legislature or the people (aka the electorate). The Court seemed to be favoring the electorate, but I think that makes some sense b/c they are all elected officials. That's shitty but that's my realist perspective.
--My prediction is that (1) the court will hold that Proposition 8 was a valid amendment, but (2) will also hold that the 18,000 same-sex marriages entered between June and November continue to be recognized and valid in California. The main hope for the anti-Prop 8 side lies in the recognition of several justices today, including Corrigan (who dissented last May), that Prop 8 is unprecedented and thus calls for a new articulation of what constitutes a revision. There's never been an amendment in California or elsewhere that (1) stripped a judicially declared "fundamental right" (a term of art that doesn't just mean things that are important to people) from (2) a judicially-protected suspect class (another term of art that doesn't just mean any political minority). If the California Supreme Court rules in favor of Prop 8, it seems to me it will need to do one of two things: (1) back off from one or more of its rationales from the marriage decision, or (2) candidly acknowledge that a bare majority of Californians can limit fundamental rights for anyone, including vulnerable minorities, under the state constitution. It's hard for me to see how either option would be attractive to the court, but I think they will choose the later because it will allow them to focus on the issue of "amendment" vs. "revision," thereby maintaining their philosophical opposition to Prop 8 while simultaneously pleasing the voters.
--Moving forward: The anti-Prop 8 people really don't want to challenge this in federal court b/c it will likely lose under the current make-up of the Supreme Court, especially as long as the Solomon Amendment and DADT are good law. This probably means that if Prop 8 is upheld, the next battle will be legislative-- i.e. getting ppl elected that will support gay marriage and lobbying the current adminstration. To me, this means at least another 10+ years of work. So our generation has finally found its defining cause.
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*Solomon Amendent - why this is important. See the Constitutional Challenge part of the entry.
*DADT = Don't Ask Don't Tell
- Location:California
- Mood:
contemplative
Instead of doing work tonight, I went to the "Eve of Justice" rally downtown. I'm not very good at estimating, but I say we pulled a good 500 people out in the rain... LAtimes.com has some pictures up here. I enjoyed the candle part - even though the person I was with kept playing with the wax and distracting me from the speeches! Hmph. I did take some pictures, but it was already dark and the rain didn't help. Anyways, oral arguments today, live from 9am-12pm PST on the web. Pray, cross your fingers, hope that justice will prevail :-)
And because I got home at like 11pm, and I'm a bit behind in my work, I'm sitting on the couch, trying to do work, and I have some music videos playing on the TV... Sugarland comes on and all I can do is just stare at Jennifer Nettles - for the entire video. I've never really been into blondes, but Jennifer Nettles (and Yvonne Strahovski!) is an exception. I mean, seriously? That voice...*swoons* This is the video tonight that made me stop and stare:
And the guy in bed is so f*ing hot too.
I first noticed her from the Something More video (it won't give me the embeded code...) and was like "WHO is that girl in the ocean?"
PS. They were on Sesame Street. How cute! (My sound is messed up right now on my laptop and I don't feel like restarting the computer. I hope the Sesame Street clip is good!)
And because I got home at like 11pm, and I'm a bit behind in my work, I'm sitting on the couch, trying to do work, and I have some music videos playing on the TV... Sugarland comes on and all I can do is just stare at Jennifer Nettles - for the entire video. I've never really been into blondes, but Jennifer Nettles (and Yvonne Strahovski!) is an exception. I mean, seriously? That voice...*swoons* This is the video tonight that made me stop and stare:
And the guy in bed is so f*ing hot too.
I first noticed her from the Something More video (it won't give me the embeded code...) and was like "WHO is that girl in the ocean?"
PS. They were on Sesame Street. How cute! (My sound is messed up right now on my laptop and I don't feel like restarting the computer. I hope the Sesame Street clip is good!)
- Location:Los Angeles, CA
- Mood:
hopeful - Music:Sugarland - Just Might (Make Me Believe)
Sometimes it pays to stay in bed in Monday
- Location:venice
- Music:I Don't Wanna Be in Love - Good Charlotte
So I had to wait for the podcast to be available because I apparently turned my alarm off WHILE I was sleeping this morning. WTF? And then I woke up startled because I thought I had parked in a meter last night and that means I would have gotten my like 10 millionth parking ticket...
Anyways...
Click here for Eliza's sexy voice
(It starts at the 56th minute)
You can also get the podcast off iTunes (The Kevin & Bean Show From KROQ)
And at the end of the post, it says she was on TV, so....
Click here to see Eliza's sexy body
Anyways...
Click here for Eliza's sexy voice
(It starts at the 56th minute)
You can also get the podcast off iTunes (The Kevin & Bean Show From KROQ)
And at the end of the post, it says she was on TV, so....
Click here to see Eliza's sexy body
- Location:work
- Mood:
flirty
I think I got a little too excited when I turned the radio on in the car this morning and heard Eliza's voice. First, she came in third in a triathlon this past year. HOT. Second, she's acknowledges that she's the dominant person in a relationship. *melts* And she's from Boston and still wants to go to college, and wants to figure out what she wants to do when she "grows up."
I downloaded the interview, but couldn't figure out how to post it. So here's the link.
Eliza on Seacrest
And for fun:


I downloaded the interview, but couldn't figure out how to post it. So here's the link.
Eliza on Seacrest
And for fun:
- Location:work
- Mood:
restless
I've only had two good Valentine's Days, including last years' $600+ dinner (I will never have a nicer dinner in my life!), so I'm okay with being single again on this day. And I'm meeting up with some friends tonight to go dancing and I have a great outfit ready to go!
Saw these Vday "ecards" and they're just so awesome, I had to share. Personally, I enjoy the Olivia Wilde one, because she just looks so hot.






From Dorothy Snarker
Saw these Vday "ecards" and they're just so awesome, I had to share. Personally, I enjoy the Olivia Wilde one, because she just looks so hot.
From Dorothy Snarker
- Mood:
anxious
All three of my favorite shows were repeats tonight? WTF? How can Gossip Girl, House, AND Chuck all be repeats? I miss my Leighton. And Olivia. And Yvonne. At least this helps me get caught up from last night.
Speaking of last night...Katy Perry at the Grammys. Seriously? What was with all the fruit and her dress and her horrible singing and her horrible dancing??? And Craig Ferguson's introduction? Really? And how she had NO chemistry with her dancers? And then all the radio shows this morning saying that she was so good? I really hope that they were being sarcastic, but I couldn't tell! You know, I am not a fan. While I think the music is catchy, I think her lyrics are outrageously homophobic and unlike others, I won't take it lightly. I even wrote to the Dinah Shore people and told them how disappointed I was that she's performing there this March. (The head of Dinah Shore wrote me back - that's how impressive my email was! Hehe) But my straight roommate, who normally doesn't mind Katy Perry, was horrified at the show last night. Thank God! Oh, and then I saw her interview with Katie Couric and Katie asked her if she's "kissed a girl" and Katy said "yes, many" and then Katie asked if she liked it and Katy said that she did, otherwise she would have stopped at one. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I thought when the song first came out, she claimed she had never kissed a girl. Did I make that up? Sorry if I'm rambling. She makes me so mad. How do people find her attractive!?
Speaking of horrifying, I had the worst nightmare last night. When I have nightmares, it's usually chasing dreams. Someone's chasing me with a gun or a knife. Fun stuff. But this nightmare was full of snakes. We (I don't know who "we" is, but it wasn't just me) were searching rooms in a hotel-like building for missing snakes. And then we were in this courtyard / atrium area and snakes were all over the ground. All different species and ranges of poisonousness (is that a word?). Everywhere I tried to walk, more snakes appeared in front of me. Like they were just dropping out of the sky.
I went to see Coraline in 3D yesterday afternoon with my old roommate. It was sooo good. The animation was unbelievable and the 3D was soooo awesome, especially the tunnel, which connects the real world to the "other world." And Dakota Fanning and Teri Hatcher were great as the voices of the mother and daughter. I so recommend it - but you have to go see it in 3D.
Oh, and lastly, on Friday night, my friend - R - and I met these two older women - J and C - at this cocktails thing and we made friends. Long story short, but J asked my friend R for my number yesterday (R had gotten J and C's numbers so that we could meet them up at the club later on Fri night). R asked me if I was okay with that and R told J that I was hung up on my ex still and if she still wanted my number. Blah blah... J texted me today, saying that she knows I'm hung up on my ex and wants to be friends. I text back (after a few hours) and say sure. Then she asks me out to the movies! WTF? Most ironic of all - she asks to go see He's Just Not That Into You. Haha. You know, I would be okay with this if she was younger (she's 12 years older than me) and I was attracted to her....but yeah... What to do, what to do...
Speaking of last night...Katy Perry at the Grammys. Seriously? What was with all the fruit and her dress and her horrible singing and her horrible dancing??? And Craig Ferguson's introduction? Really? And how she had NO chemistry with her dancers? And then all the radio shows this morning saying that she was so good? I really hope that they were being sarcastic, but I couldn't tell! You know, I am not a fan. While I think the music is catchy, I think her lyrics are outrageously homophobic and unlike others, I won't take it lightly. I even wrote to the Dinah Shore people and told them how disappointed I was that she's performing there this March. (The head of Dinah Shore wrote me back - that's how impressive my email was! Hehe) But my straight roommate, who normally doesn't mind Katy Perry, was horrified at the show last night. Thank God! Oh, and then I saw her interview with Katie Couric and Katie asked her if she's "kissed a girl" and Katy said "yes, many" and then Katie asked if she liked it and Katy said that she did, otherwise she would have stopped at one. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I thought when the song first came out, she claimed she had never kissed a girl. Did I make that up? Sorry if I'm rambling. She makes me so mad. How do people find her attractive!?
Speaking of horrifying, I had the worst nightmare last night. When I have nightmares, it's usually chasing dreams. Someone's chasing me with a gun or a knife. Fun stuff. But this nightmare was full of snakes. We (I don't know who "we" is, but it wasn't just me) were searching rooms in a hotel-like building for missing snakes. And then we were in this courtyard / atrium area and snakes were all over the ground. All different species and ranges of poisonousness (is that a word?). Everywhere I tried to walk, more snakes appeared in front of me. Like they were just dropping out of the sky.
I went to see Coraline in 3D yesterday afternoon with my old roommate. It was sooo good. The animation was unbelievable and the 3D was soooo awesome, especially the tunnel, which connects the real world to the "other world." And Dakota Fanning and Teri Hatcher were great as the voices of the mother and daughter. I so recommend it - but you have to go see it in 3D.
Oh, and lastly, on Friday night, my friend - R - and I met these two older women - J and C - at this cocktails thing and we made friends. Long story short, but J asked my friend R for my number yesterday (R had gotten J and C's numbers so that we could meet them up at the club later on Fri night). R asked me if I was okay with that and R told J that I was hung up on my ex still and if she still wanted my number. Blah blah... J texted me today, saying that she knows I'm hung up on my ex and wants to be friends. I text back (after a few hours) and say sure. Then she asks me out to the movies! WTF? Most ironic of all - she asks to go see He's Just Not That Into You. Haha. You know, I would be okay with this if she was younger (she's 12 years older than me) and I was attracted to her....but yeah... What to do, what to do...
- Mood:
confused
My ex and I split up in mid-December after almost three years together. We had a really up and down relationship. Most of the time, it was great. We were the couple you hate - all lovey dovey. But then there were the times when we fought. But they were stupid fights...we didn't fight about the things that matter. Most of the time, I would say something dumb, she'd get mad (she has a bit of an anger management issue), I'd hold my ground because I didn't think it was that big of a deal for an apology, and then finally, after 20 minutes of arguing, I'd finally apologize. (The only excuse I can give for not apologizing right away is that we had a very unbalanced relationship in the beginning, so this was my *stupid* way of trying to assert myself so she didn't have all the power and I didn't always give in). Or, we'd fight because there was something that was bothering me, I'd tell her, and then she'd turn it all around and get mad at me for bringing it up in the first place - like I shouldn't have been bothered by it.
So, at the beginning of December, she's in finals for grad school and studying all the time and I start a new job, so we barely saw each other. I would text her before I went to bed and say goodnight and tell her I love her and she wouldn't text back. Occasionally I called to say goodnight, but didn't want to interrupt her studying but when I did, she thought I was checking up on her, making sure she was studying enough. (Note: I was out of state last spring for 5 months consecutively and she would call me at like 3am to say goodnight because she wanted to hear my voice right before she went to bed.) Anyways, we got into this big fight in mid-December and the next day, I call her, tell her that I'm not happy, and that I know she's not happy and that it's not working and if we can sit down and figure it out. She says "why bother, we can't fix it" and I'm like "oh?" And we break up. Now, keep in mind, we broke up last summer (Why? I have no idea. She never told me.) and then a month and a half later, I *ahem* seduced her and we got back together soon after. We never talked about why she broke up with me or about how we could reduce the fighting. Why? Again, no idea.
So we tried to be friends after we broke up because she was always telling me that if we broke up, she couldn't bare the thought of not having me in her life (and this was how she was when we broke up in the summer). And I always said that she's my first love and it would probably take some time to get over her before I could be friends. So, the holidays come and there's a lot of distance. She comes over right after New Year's and gives me this beautiful necklace for Christmas (because she didn't want to return it?) and tells me how hard it's been for her. I'm like, uh, yeah, I'm hurting too. But since then she's made no effort at all to communicate with me - I call her, she calls me back a day later and makes excuses why she can't see me. And the whole time, her best friend and my roommate (same person) tells me that she's really hurting and sad. Then last week, she emails me and tells me that she can't be friends right now, that she loves me, but it's too hard to be friends.
WTF? I hate drama. If we both love each other and our problem is communication, shouldn't that be one of the few things you CAN attempt to fix in a relationship? And I can't tell her any of this, because I told her I would respect her wishes.
Oh, and one more thing you should know...she's a serial monogamist with commitment issues (sounds ironic, right?) And she's finally going to be out of school and working next fall and is going through a quarterlife crisis right now, and wants to have no commitments, travel a lot and just have fun. YET, 1) in October, for my birthday, we were wine tasting and gave me one of the most wonderful birthdays ever and she talked to a woman at one of the wineries about weddings and getting married at that vineyard (and got a packet of details about it), 2) she asked me to marry her right before the election - "in case prop 8 passed and we don't get the chance again," (yeah, weird proposal) and 3) she was so proud to show me the sign she was carrying at the Mormon temple protest after the election. It said "I only want one wife."
So yeah...I'm debating on writing her alove letter, and give it to my roommate to give to her when she sees her next. That way she can read it when she wants to and doesn't stubble onto it like if I were to email her or leave a voicemail. I've written it like 50 different times in my head and I don't know what exactly to say...I don't want it to be a 11 page tear-stained letter, but I do want it to be somewhat emotional. I don't want to place all the blame on her or tell her that it's all my fault either.
So, at the beginning of December, she's in finals for grad school and studying all the time and I start a new job, so we barely saw each other. I would text her before I went to bed and say goodnight and tell her I love her and she wouldn't text back. Occasionally I called to say goodnight, but didn't want to interrupt her studying but when I did, she thought I was checking up on her, making sure she was studying enough. (Note: I was out of state last spring for 5 months consecutively and she would call me at like 3am to say goodnight because she wanted to hear my voice right before she went to bed.) Anyways, we got into this big fight in mid-December and the next day, I call her, tell her that I'm not happy, and that I know she's not happy and that it's not working and if we can sit down and figure it out. She says "why bother, we can't fix it" and I'm like "oh?" And we break up. Now, keep in mind, we broke up last summer (Why? I have no idea. She never told me.) and then a month and a half later, I *ahem* seduced her and we got back together soon after. We never talked about why she broke up with me or about how we could reduce the fighting. Why? Again, no idea.
So we tried to be friends after we broke up because she was always telling me that if we broke up, she couldn't bare the thought of not having me in her life (and this was how she was when we broke up in the summer). And I always said that she's my first love and it would probably take some time to get over her before I could be friends. So, the holidays come and there's a lot of distance. She comes over right after New Year's and gives me this beautiful necklace for Christmas (because she didn't want to return it?) and tells me how hard it's been for her. I'm like, uh, yeah, I'm hurting too. But since then she's made no effort at all to communicate with me - I call her, she calls me back a day later and makes excuses why she can't see me. And the whole time, her best friend and my roommate (same person) tells me that she's really hurting and sad. Then last week, she emails me and tells me that she can't be friends right now, that she loves me, but it's too hard to be friends.
WTF? I hate drama. If we both love each other and our problem is communication, shouldn't that be one of the few things you CAN attempt to fix in a relationship? And I can't tell her any of this, because I told her I would respect her wishes.
Oh, and one more thing you should know...she's a serial monogamist with commitment issues (sounds ironic, right?) And she's finally going to be out of school and working next fall and is going through a quarterlife crisis right now, and wants to have no commitments, travel a lot and just have fun. YET, 1) in October, for my birthday, we were wine tasting and gave me one of the most wonderful birthdays ever and she talked to a woman at one of the wineries about weddings and getting married at that vineyard (and got a packet of details about it), 2) she asked me to marry her right before the election - "in case prop 8 passed and we don't get the chance again," (yeah, weird proposal) and 3) she was so proud to show me the sign she was carrying at the Mormon temple protest after the election. It said "I only want one wife."
So yeah...I'm debating on writing her a
I don't know. Am I stupid for holding on and trying to figure out WTF happened? Maybe I should have just written this in my non-online journal and shut up about it.
- Location:at work
- Mood:
frustrated - Music:Winter Song - Sara Bareilles, Ingrid Michaelson
I was completely glued to all the coverage today. Mind you, I was a Hillary supporter through the Democratic Convention, but I love the inspiration and pride he invokes in everyone and I do believe that he will do great things for our country (we just can't expect everything to happen immediately!). I left for work late this morning, stayed in the car about 8-10 minutes after I got to work so I could listen to Obama's inauguration speech, watched CNN.com Live/Facebook's coverage on the Internet all day during work, and the Inauguration Ball coverage since I've gotten home from work....I was so proud and simultaneously frightened that Obama and Michelle got out of the limo twice and walked part of the parade route. All I could think of was "please don't let anything happen, please!"
As for the religious aspect of the Inauguration, if you haven't heard, the first gay episcopal Bishop Gene Robinson's inauguration prayer during Sunday's We Are One special was not broadcast on HBO, but the prayer was amazing - watch it here and here's the transcript of the prayer. HBO claims that Obama's administration told HBO that Bishop Robinson's prayer would be part of the pre-show. It took place 5 minutes before the the broadcast started. Was anything else part of the preshow? As for Pastor Rick Warren, when he started his prayer with the following: "Almighty God, our Father, everything we see and everything we can’t see exists because of you alone. It all comes from you. It all belongs to you. It all exists for your glory," and the radio dj said "except the homos!" I laughed hysterically. His prayer was just okay and it was nothing like Robinson's. And he pronounced Malia & Sasha with a funky weird accent (huh?!)
The only bad part of the day was that my ex has been in DC since Friday, on Sunday she was standing two feet from Hillary Clinton, and she attended the Inauguration today and a Ball tonight but I couldn't talk/text her to find out how everything was going and how exciting it was. (Not that she told me not to, but I didn't want to interact with her at all.)
*** In non-political news, I got a phone number on Saturday night. From a gay boy... But he was really nice. BTW - this is the second time I've gotten a gay boy's phone number. And I've never gotten a girl's number while out.... As for the L Word premiere party on Sunday, it was good. Haven't seen that many lesbians/bi girls in a long time. The actresses weren't there (they were at the same club for last year's premiere), but the episode was good.
PS. I was so happy that everyone on Facebook loved the Gay and Lesbian Band Association's participation in the parade - first time a GLBT group has participated in the parade! And Barack has posted his promises to the GLBT community.
As for the religious aspect of the Inauguration, if you haven't heard, the first gay episcopal Bishop Gene Robinson's inauguration prayer during Sunday's We Are One special was not broadcast on HBO, but the prayer was amazing - watch it here and here's the transcript of the prayer. HBO claims that Obama's administration told HBO that Bishop Robinson's prayer would be part of the pre-show. It took place 5 minutes before the the broadcast started. Was anything else part of the preshow? As for Pastor Rick Warren, when he started his prayer with the following: "Almighty God, our Father, everything we see and everything we can’t see exists because of you alone. It all comes from you. It all belongs to you. It all exists for your glory," and the radio dj said "except the homos!" I laughed hysterically. His prayer was just okay and it was nothing like Robinson's. And he pronounced Malia & Sasha with a funky weird accent (huh?!)
The only bad part of the day was that my ex has been in DC since Friday, on Sunday she was standing two feet from Hillary Clinton, and she attended the Inauguration today and a Ball tonight but I couldn't talk/text her to find out how everything was going and how exciting it was. (Not that she told me not to, but I didn't want to interact with her at all.)
*** In non-political news, I got a phone number on Saturday night. From a gay boy... But he was really nice. BTW - this is the second time I've gotten a gay boy's phone number. And I've never gotten a girl's number while out.... As for the L Word premiere party on Sunday, it was good. Haven't seen that many lesbians/bi girls in a long time. The actresses weren't there (they were at the same club for last year's premiere), but the episode was good.
PS. I was so happy that everyone on Facebook loved the Gay and Lesbian Band Association's participation in the parade - first time a GLBT group has participated in the parade! And Barack has posted his promises to the GLBT community.
So the buzz is that the Gossip Girl spin-off will be set in 1980's Los Angeles (actually, the San Fernando Valley) and will feature a young Lily van der Woodsen during her teen years, partying on the Sunset Strip and, eventually, meeting and partying with Rufus. Interesting.... Hmm, horrible fashion, horrible hair, awesome music (sorry, I love 80's music). Interesting choice for a spin-off, but is it going to succeed? Considering Gossip Girl has horrible ratings and it's such an amazing show - if just for Leighton and Blake - then how do they think that this spin-off will succeed??
Oh, here - the Hollywood Reporter: 'Gossip Girl' spinoff moving forward
Oh, here - the Hollywood Reporter: 'Gossip Girl' spinoff moving forward
- Mood:
confused
So I read on afterellen.com this morning that Kate French will join the cast of Gossip Girl for a three episode arc sometime soon. God, I love this girl. I'm not sure when I started to love her...maybe it was the first moment I saw her on the L Word...but I know it was cemented during the Lifecycle episode of season 5, when her and Jenny got it on and recorded the entire thing during their big bike trip. The white button-down, the glasses, and more things I can't say... mostly because I was at a loss for words throughout the entire scene. For some reason, if you don't remember -

Here's where I got this picture from: Recap of Episode 510: Lifecycle (and there's more pics on the site). Between this, her on South of Nowhere (even if she was Aiden's girlfriend) and now Gossip Girl, she just can't do anything wrong.
In real life news, I had dinner with an old college friend last night. He stayed on the east coast for the last three years after college and just moved back to California (he's from here). We had a good time and checked out a new restaurant that turned out to be better than expected. Problem was, the few times I talked about my ex, I ended up using "friend" to refer to her. I think part of the reason for the "friend" reference was that I really didn't want to talk about her. If I said ex, and he asked about the ex, then I would have to go into it and because it's a fresh break-up and I'm still in love with her, I don't want to talk about her, even though she's on my mind all the time. I only mentioned her a few times when it came up in conversation about parking tickets (I'm the queen of them unfortunately).
But aside from that, I don't know why I referred to her as a friend and not an ex. It just kinda happened. And I've done this before. I did the same thing when I was actually dating A and wanted to just chat about her to my high school boyfriend and a good guy friend I've known since 1st grade just this past spring. While I have a hard time in general coming out to my friends from college and high school, I can come out to my female friends more easily than male friends. When it comes to guys, it's like I'm afraid of how they're going to react somehow. I've had enough run-ins with guys' snide comments about threesomes and the like, which has probably jaded me. However, all of my guy friends are so not like that - making me wonder why I'm so afraid. I'm sure they'd be totally cool.
The most ironic part of the night was that he was catching me up on some mutual friends and telling me that two of our friends - one gay, one straight - got married (to other people) last summer. L and her girlfriend got married in Canada and recently bought motorcycles. We laughed about how stereotypically butch they are. The most ironic part is that she hit on me our sophomore year. We were drunk, playing beer pong and she came on to me. When I told her I wasn't interested, she blurted out (and highly offended me by saying), "you play softball and don't have a boyfriend, you have to be a lesbian!" Now, I'm sure she'll be happy to find out that I had a girlfriend for three years, but I'm still not attracted to her!
Anyways, bottom line: I hate coming out again and again. It's annoying and tiring but I have an especially hard time coming out to guy friends. Anyone else have the same problem?
Here's where I got this picture from: Recap of Episode 510: Lifecycle (and there's more pics on the site). Between this, her on South of Nowhere (even if she was Aiden's girlfriend) and now Gossip Girl, she just can't do anything wrong.
In real life news, I had dinner with an old college friend last night. He stayed on the east coast for the last three years after college and just moved back to California (he's from here). We had a good time and checked out a new restaurant that turned out to be better than expected. Problem was, the few times I talked about my ex, I ended up using "friend" to refer to her. I think part of the reason for the "friend" reference was that I really didn't want to talk about her. If I said ex, and he asked about the ex, then I would have to go into it and because it's a fresh break-up and I'm still in love with her, I don't want to talk about her, even though she's on my mind all the time. I only mentioned her a few times when it came up in conversation about parking tickets (I'm the queen of them unfortunately).
But aside from that, I don't know why I referred to her as a friend and not an ex. It just kinda happened. And I've done this before. I did the same thing when I was actually dating A and wanted to just chat about her to my high school boyfriend and a good guy friend I've known since 1st grade just this past spring. While I have a hard time in general coming out to my friends from college and high school, I can come out to my female friends more easily than male friends. When it comes to guys, it's like I'm afraid of how they're going to react somehow. I've had enough run-ins with guys' snide comments about threesomes and the like, which has probably jaded me. However, all of my guy friends are so not like that - making me wonder why I'm so afraid. I'm sure they'd be totally cool.
The most ironic part of the night was that he was catching me up on some mutual friends and telling me that two of our friends - one gay, one straight - got married (to other people) last summer. L and her girlfriend got married in Canada and recently bought motorcycles. We laughed about how stereotypically butch they are. The most ironic part is that she hit on me our sophomore year. We were drunk, playing beer pong and she came on to me. When I told her I wasn't interested, she blurted out (and highly offended me by saying), "you play softball and don't have a boyfriend, you have to be a lesbian!" Now, I'm sure she'll be happy to find out that I had a girlfriend for three years, but I'm still not attracted to her!
Anyways, bottom line: I hate coming out again and again. It's annoying and tiring but I have an especially hard time coming out to guy friends. Anyone else have the same problem?
- Mood:
blah
Okay, so for a few days now, I've been trying to find out when new episodes of Chuck come on and when Dollhouse airs in general (day, time, and starting date). And then tonight I actually take time to look online --> Chuck, Dollhouse, AND Gossip Girl ALL on the same night AND at the same time??!?! (As far as I know, Chuck is still on at the same time?) Why, FOX, why must you do this? This is why I couldn't get into Sarah Conner Chronicles. My DVR can only handle 2 shows at a time. I can't record two and watch a third (they really have to fix that). What am I supposed to do? Choose between Serena/Blair/Blake/Leighton, Chuck and Sarah, and Eliza Dushku? How in the world is someone supposed to do that? Especially when FOX doesn't put the episodes online for 8 days after the show airs. WTF. Does the CW put Gossip Girl online? (I know last spring they didn't and I haven't checked back since). The only I can think to do is DVR Chuck (because that's the only show my roommate cares about out of these three) and Gossip Girl and watch Dollhouse a week later. But that SUCKS.
PS. Does anyone know when new episodes of Chuck and Dollhouse start airing? I know Gossip Girl starts back up tomorrow (yay!) - they've been sponsoring movies on LOGO the past few days! ;)
PS. Does anyone know when new episodes of Chuck and Dollhouse start airing? I know Gossip Girl starts back up tomorrow (yay!) - they've been sponsoring movies on LOGO the past few days! ;)
- Mood:
WTF?!
Happy New Year to everyone. That said, I had a great time last night but was an idiot. I just hung out at one of my friend's apartments. There were just five of us; we drank wine, champagne, and vodka; we had a impromptu dance party, played rock band, and barely paid attention when they replayed the ball dropping for midnight (which was good so I didn't miss my ex and kissing someone at midnight).
Problem is, at 4am, everyone was getting ready for bed and stupid me decided that I wanted to wake up at my own apartment....so, yeah, I drove home. I'm an idiot. Not only was I drunk, but I woke up this morning still drunk. I act pretty sober when I'm drunk, so I'm guessing that's why my friend let me leave. Thank GOD it was way late and all the cops I saw had already pulled people over. If it was 1am instead of 4am, I'm guessing I would have been in trouble. Luckily I made it home safely and without a DUI, parallel parked nicely, put my parking permit on the rearview mirror (I went out and double-checked this morning because I was worried!), took out my contacts, put on PJs, and slept like a baby.
But not only did I drive drunk, but my gas light came on and I got completely lost. Now, I live near 3rd and Fairfax in LA and was at my friend's near Wilshire and the 405. (google map it) And I somehow ended up driving through the neighborhoods of Beverly Hills. I finally ended up on Sunset - thank goodness, because then I knew where I was and could get home. I honestly have no idea how I ended up there - way north of where I was supposed to be driving. I thank my "angry music" cd for keeping me awake and alert.
PS. I, in no way, advocate drunk driving and will NEVER do that again. I'm kicking myself hard today. Feel free to yell at me. I know it was wrong.
Now, best. thing. EVER. Spaceballs, the 1987 Mel Brooks movie, now has an antimated series. Okay, so after watching a few episodes, it's not amazing. But if you don't expect much, it's still pretty awesome. It's like a fun campy movie that you know is bad and just accept it. They do have Mel Brooks doing his characters (President Skroob and Yogurt), and he's still amazing. But the character of Dark Helmet is reduced to a side kick and without Rick Moranis and John Candy and Bill Pullman, it's not quite the same and a lot of the comedic timing from the movie is lost. But the guy doing the voice of Barf really sounds like John Candy. Anyways, it's still fun and really makes me want to watch the movie again. I only have it on VHS. Really need it on DVD. And speaking of that, I can't tell you my favorite quote, because there's waaaay too many great ones, but here's my favorite part of the movie:
Dark Helmet: Now what is it?
Radar Technician: I'm having trouble with the radar, sir.
Dark Helmet: What's wrong with it?
Radar Technician: I've lost the bleeps, the sweeps, and the creeps.
Dark Helmet: The what?
Colonel Sandurz: The what?
Dark Helmet: And the what?
Radar Technician: You know. The bleeps.
[makes bleep sound effect]
Radar Technician: The sweeps.
[makes sweep sound]
Radar Technician: And the creeps.
[makes creep sound]
Problem is, at 4am, everyone was getting ready for bed and stupid me decided that I wanted to wake up at my own apartment....so, yeah, I drove home. I'm an idiot. Not only was I drunk, but I woke up this morning still drunk. I act pretty sober when I'm drunk, so I'm guessing that's why my friend let me leave. Thank GOD it was way late and all the cops I saw had already pulled people over. If it was 1am instead of 4am, I'm guessing I would have been in trouble. Luckily I made it home safely and without a DUI, parallel parked nicely, put my parking permit on the rearview mirror (I went out and double-checked this morning because I was worried!), took out my contacts, put on PJs, and slept like a baby.
But not only did I drive drunk, but my gas light came on and I got completely lost. Now, I live near 3rd and Fairfax in LA and was at my friend's near Wilshire and the 405. (google map it) And I somehow ended up driving through the neighborhoods of Beverly Hills. I finally ended up on Sunset - thank goodness, because then I knew where I was and could get home. I honestly have no idea how I ended up there - way north of where I was supposed to be driving. I thank my "angry music" cd for keeping me awake and alert.
PS. I, in no way, advocate drunk driving and will NEVER do that again. I'm kicking myself hard today. Feel free to yell at me. I know it was wrong.
Now, best. thing. EVER. Spaceballs, the 1987 Mel Brooks movie, now has an antimated series. Okay, so after watching a few episodes, it's not amazing. But if you don't expect much, it's still pretty awesome. It's like a fun campy movie that you know is bad and just accept it. They do have Mel Brooks doing his characters (President Skroob and Yogurt), and he's still amazing. But the character of Dark Helmet is reduced to a side kick and without Rick Moranis and John Candy and Bill Pullman, it's not quite the same and a lot of the comedic timing from the movie is lost. But the guy doing the voice of Barf really sounds like John Candy. Anyways, it's still fun and really makes me want to watch the movie again. I only have it on VHS. Really need it on DVD. And speaking of that, I can't tell you my favorite quote, because there's waaaay too many great ones, but here's my favorite part of the movie:
Dark Helmet: Now what is it?
Radar Technician: I'm having trouble with the radar, sir.
Dark Helmet: What's wrong with it?
Radar Technician: I've lost the bleeps, the sweeps, and the creeps.
Dark Helmet: The what?
Colonel Sandurz: The what?
Dark Helmet: And the what?
Radar Technician: You know. The bleeps.
[makes bleep sound effect]
Radar Technician: The sweeps.
[makes sweep sound]
Radar Technician: And the creeps.
[makes creep sound]
- Mood:
amused
Meme!
I was tagged by
sapphire_magick
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their journal and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question. Tag eight people. Don't tag who tagged you. And you... have fun!
1. What are your nicknames?
Hmm, I had a couple when I played sports, mostly: Special K, Circle K, but normally it's just K if someone wants to call me something other than my name.
2. What's your favorite holiday?
Probably Christmas. I love the lights, the decorations (my parents' house turns into Christmas store!), the music, and how people tend to be a bit nicer, and being with family.
3. What's new in your life right now?
- just moved to a new apartment and started a new job
- broke up with my girlfriend of almost 3 years (we just couldn't make it work, despite how much we love one another)
- trying to figure out where I'm going for Christmas since I couldn't get enough time off to go home to FL and broke up with my gf (I was supposed to spend it with her family)
4. Where was the last Starbucks that you visited?
Venice Beach, CA - on the way to work last week
5. Are you introverted or extroverted?
Definitely more introverted, but getting better ;)
6. What books are you currently reading?
Middlesex, but it's going really slowly. I haven't done much reading for fun ever since college (I mean, before I ever started college). Before then, I read all the time. Maybe now that I'm out of grad school and working I'll read more?
7. What celebrity do you have a crush on?
Olivia Wilde - #1. Yvonne Strahovski, Leighton Meester, Gabrielle Christian, and interestingly enough, no boys right now.
8. What is your favorite pair of shoes to wear?
Definitely flip flops. But for going out - I have these amazing bronze-ish heels that are gorgeous. They just hurt after an hour...
9. What type/genre of music do you usually listen to?
Punk, classic rock, pop. I listen to almost anything, but mostly those.
10. First three things you do right after you get up.
Check the time then hit snooze, shower, get dressed
11. You go out with friends to get some ice-cream. How many scoops and what flavors do you order?
Hmm, probably one or two, depending on how much milk products I've had lately. I try lots of flavors, but they have to have chocolate, no nuts, and peanut butter is good.
12. What do you love to wear?
in public - jeans, t-shirt
at home - sweats
13. When people guess your age, do they usually think you're older, younger or get it right?
Maybe a little younger, but most of the time they're pretty accurate
14. When you meet new people, do you: A) talk their ear off, B) smile to them and then ignore them to talk to your friends, C) chat politely, D) find a common ground/interests and get to know them better
Depends. If they're hitting on me, and being a douche - B (without the smile part); if they're hitting on me and not being a douche - C or D depending on how attracted I am to them; others - mostly C
15. Do you have a driver's license?
Yep. Have to in Los Angeles.
16. What was the first band you ever saw live?
Green Day. Awesome.
17. What's your favorite color nail polish?
Green, but I've been wearing a lot of pink lately. (I only do my toes though)
18. When was the last time you've gotten drunk/tipsy?
Last night. And then we played Mario Kart on Super Nintendo. Awesome. I was still pretty damn good.
19. What's the first three things you do after you turn on your computer?
1 - My homepage is the NYtimes, so I check the headlines; 2 - check my email; 3 - check afterellen.com for any fun stuff.
20. What was the first TV show you couldn't get enough of?
That I can actively remember? Probably Saved by the Bell or Dawson's Creek (totally had a crush on Katie Holmes but was clueless at the time)
I was tagged by
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their journal and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question. Tag eight people. Don't tag who tagged you. And you... have fun!
1. What are your nicknames?
Hmm, I had a couple when I played sports, mostly: Special K, Circle K, but normally it's just K if someone wants to call me something other than my name.
2. What's your favorite holiday?
Probably Christmas. I love the lights, the decorations (my parents' house turns into Christmas store!), the music, and how people tend to be a bit nicer, and being with family.
3. What's new in your life right now?
- just moved to a new apartment and started a new job
- broke up with my girlfriend of almost 3 years (we just couldn't make it work, despite how much we love one another)
- trying to figure out where I'm going for Christmas since I couldn't get enough time off to go home to FL and broke up with my gf (I was supposed to spend it with her family)
4. Where was the last Starbucks that you visited?
Venice Beach, CA - on the way to work last week
5. Are you introverted or extroverted?
Definitely more introverted, but getting better ;)
6. What books are you currently reading?
Middlesex, but it's going really slowly. I haven't done much reading for fun ever since college (I mean, before I ever started college). Before then, I read all the time. Maybe now that I'm out of grad school and working I'll read more?
7. What celebrity do you have a crush on?
Olivia Wilde - #1. Yvonne Strahovski, Leighton Meester, Gabrielle Christian, and interestingly enough, no boys right now.
8. What is your favorite pair of shoes to wear?
Definitely flip flops. But for going out - I have these amazing bronze-ish heels that are gorgeous. They just hurt after an hour...
9. What type/genre of music do you usually listen to?
Punk, classic rock, pop. I listen to almost anything, but mostly those.
10. First three things you do right after you get up.
Check the time then hit snooze, shower, get dressed
11. You go out with friends to get some ice-cream. How many scoops and what flavors do you order?
Hmm, probably one or two, depending on how much milk products I've had lately. I try lots of flavors, but they have to have chocolate, no nuts, and peanut butter is good.
12. What do you love to wear?
in public - jeans, t-shirt
at home - sweats
13. When people guess your age, do they usually think you're older, younger or get it right?
Maybe a little younger, but most of the time they're pretty accurate
14. When you meet new people, do you: A) talk their ear off, B) smile to them and then ignore them to talk to your friends, C) chat politely, D) find a common ground/interests and get to know them better
Depends. If they're hitting on me, and being a douche - B (without the smile part); if they're hitting on me and not being a douche - C or D depending on how attracted I am to them; others - mostly C
15. Do you have a driver's license?
Yep. Have to in Los Angeles.
16. What was the first band you ever saw live?
Green Day. Awesome.
17. What's your favorite color nail polish?
Green, but I've been wearing a lot of pink lately. (I only do my toes though)
18. When was the last time you've gotten drunk/tipsy?
Last night. And then we played Mario Kart on Super Nintendo. Awesome. I was still pretty damn good.
19. What's the first three things you do after you turn on your computer?
1 - My homepage is the NYtimes, so I check the headlines; 2 - check my email; 3 - check afterellen.com for any fun stuff.
20. What was the first TV show you couldn't get enough of?
That I can actively remember? Probably Saved by the Bell or Dawson's Creek (totally had a crush on Katie Holmes but was clueless at the time)
- Location:my new apartment!
- Mood:
cold - Music:holiday assortment
